In these troubled times, it's important to have music that's fun, something that reconnects us to our youths when the whole world felt possible...and then combine with the demand to make that world possible. However, for many people, our youths felt foreclosed by social pressures all around us. It Might Get Better, the sophomore full-length from Leeds-based queer punk band Jesus and His Judgemental Father, is a painful reminder of those feelings and a nuanced examination of how they continue to impact us when we've grown up and left the house.
For those who don't know, gay columnist Dan Savage of Savage Love fame among other queer activists and celebrities launched a suicide prevention campaign in the mid-aughts called It Gets Better that encouraged LGBTQ young people to hang on and find community. The album's cheeky rejoinder refers both to the short-term frustrations of romantic peccadilloes we all face to the existential crisis of physical safety and mental health in a world that wishes queer and trans people didn't exist.
The arc of the universe may bend towards justice, but as we've seen across the world, it's by no means linear. This week alone, two black trans*women were reported murdered.
It Might Get Better shows musical growth in the band. While they continue to serve up strong melodies with thoughtful lyrics, this effort shows a playfulness and musical complexity that we didn't see on Kings & Queens. "Lunartick" veers into indie rock territory and shows some really fine vocal harmonization. "Not My First Rodeo," which will be featured on this week's podcast, is a straightforward banger that does a fantastic job of watching the narrator struggle with keeping one's defenses up in a casual fling that turned sour. (At least, that's my reading of it.) The second half of the album brashly careens into aspects of the LGBTQ experience in particular, including the title track:
I remember you kicked me out that Christmas Eve
You slapped me so hard that it made my nose bleed
And I still came home
I needed care but all I felt was really scared and I'd be hiding in my room
Growing up is never easy I know
But it's hard for queers
Sad and lonely if you're hiding
Or worse if you dared to share
But you shouldn't have to live that way
And lie about yourself in every word you say
It's ok 'cos one day you will go
And those fuckers will be people that are fuckers that you used to know
The song is simultaneously triumphant but ambiguous -- unlike the maxim It Gets Better, there's no actual guarantee of anything: friendship, partnership, a chosen family that will support you in the ways your parents can't or won't. When you enter adulthood having "lie[d] about yourself in every word you say," it's difficult to learn how to be authentic to yourself, as the band ends the album with in "Queer + Damaged":
I found a pet the other day
A hate, a habit, a way to dull the pain
Irate's a game you like to play
I play along, a game for fools I never could escape
The album is no more of a downer than any good old country album; there's something about the unity of the experience of hearing someone pour themselves out that reminds us of our resilience. After all, we're lived to sing the tale.
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